Girl Dinner

Girl Dinner Tonight is
Holding the feeling of hunger
Hair collected from the walls of your shower
With a side of used tissues and stained tshirts
Seasoned with the inside of wet cigarettes
A training bra marinated in the drawers of your mothers house
Delusions of grandeur in the grocery store
Charcuterie board of slim Jim’s and cheese sticks
You tell yourself its close enough

Girl dinner tonight is

An entire bottle of red wine that stains your tongue
A porn that you ignore to get off
A high horse that stomps on your lower back
Pain with no origin
Jeans that fit a week ago and concealer in the wrong shade
Delusions of mediocrity in the liquor store
However many calories you’ll allow yourself
A bowl of frozen peas
Hallucinations of Jesus at 3 am
Prayer beads you won’t touch
Served in a crystal sound bowl
If you traced the edge it sounds like your first breakdown
Or the slap of hands hitting the shower wall

Girl dinner tonight is

Questioning your college major
Half a bottle of honey whiskey
Archived pictures of your ex lovers
The gum on the bottom of your going out shoes
Being kicked out of a group chat
Rusty nails on a china plate
Fake eyelashes ground into the carpet
Liver, fava beans and a nice Chianti
The pit in your stomach
The pit in your mothers

-D.V